Friday, July 21, 2006
Leaving virginia...
i'm typing this as i'm on my flight to orlando, florida.2 months and 20 days at virginia has whizzed past just like that. now i've finally left virginia to head for my travelling plans. it's fast. fast.
i still remember how i was so looking forward when i just reached; to the end of work, start of travelling, and to leave the ulu virginia state. but yet now that i'm leaving, i find it so hard to control my tears from rolling down my cheeks when the plane took off from the airport. because i know that i am really leaving this place. leaving virginia for good. and god knows if i'll ever come back to this place again.
i am sad to leave... very sad. i'm probably one of the craziest ones amongst the singaporeans as most of them can't wait to leave this place man. i can't imagine how much i've cried during the few days before i left. i cried so badly when i left the singapore airport... and for the first few days that i was here. and yet now that i'm crying again when i leave richmond airport. i wonder what i want man. the thought of not being able to see the americans i've gotten to know throughout these 11 weeks just makes my heart ache. we got to know each other better, see each other almost everyday, spend time together.. build friendships... but now that i'm gone, we'll probably never ever get to meet each other again in life. this is the reality and cruelty of life.
and as time goes by, people start drifting apart because of distance... not being part of each other's lifes... etc etc. and before i know it, we might even forget that we've known each other before. but then again i guess it doesn't matter because we will probably never even get the chance to meet each other ever again. it is sad... but yet that's the truth of how reality really is. and it just hurts even more to know that things are going to turn out like that in time to come, and there's isn't really anything much that you can do. simply because change is probably the only constant thing in life.
working at PKD has probably been one of the most beautiful memories of my ever boring life. xueying told me something last night which i felt was really true. this whole program feels like a dream... something that does not belong to reality. i can't imagine how i'll go back to my old life again back in singapore. and felt like i just had a nice, good fun dream for the whole of summer holidays. simply because life was easy, simple and happy. there was nothing much to worry about except not clocking enough hours and getting sent home early... all was good and i enjoyed myself. not only the company of the co-workers, but also the cohesiveness of all the singaporeans (whom many did not know each other before hand) as we all stay in the dorm. we go to work together, chat together, eat together, have fun together. there's always endless things to talk about everyday after work... these are the kinda memories that will never be the same again.
i really really loved and enjoyed my work trip here. it wasn't like a fantastic wow wow thing... but it was good enough for me to be satisfied. at least more enjoyable than staying in singapore. i've learnt so much stuff in life that i can never learn from school... the experiences will last me a lifetime. it has changed my opinions for alot of stuff too... like values and opinions with regards to different things in life.
i love USA and i love americans. uh.. not all but at least most of them. those that love me too. haha. sometimes I just feel that this is a dream that i never wanna wake up from…
YuAn® spun on 11:06 PM.
